Disappointed with God

I wonder sometimes if I’m disappointed with God. It’s not an outward shaking of my fist, “God, I’m disappointed with you.” No, it’s more of a quiet, inner gnawing where my thoughts drift to God’s intentions for me. God, are you really guiding me?

I know he loves me. I don’t question that. But, I wonder at times if he is really guiding my steps and ordering my path in life. Is he really moving me to the place where I need to be in life? Is this “Journey with God” my leading or his?

For some, this is not a big issue, but there is within me this deep need to walk with purpose in life. One of my favorite scriptures is 1 Corinthians 9:26, “I run straight to the goal with purpose in every step.” I know it’s God’s desire for me to walk with purpose, but the harder I press in to really understand this, the quieter heaven becomes, or so it seems.

I find myself disappointed. I spent the past month pressing into God to hear what he has planned for me this year. At first, I was disappointed at myself for not having sought God enough. Then, that underlying gnawing started to arise in me. God, you’re all powerful and all knowing. Surely, you can make my purpose known to me. That’s not a hard thing. I know it’s what you want. Nothing. Then, the disappointment started.

Lately, I’ve been talking to some people about the promises of God. One lady in particular has been waiting years for an answered prayer. I can hear in her words how the passing of years have become terribly discouraging. Her soul is wounded and bleeding, unhealed. It manifests in tears and unspoken disappointment.

Maybe you are disappointed with God. I know there are times that I’ve been disappointed. How do you respond?

First, God knows everything. He knows your thoughts. He created your inmost being. He knows you better than you know yourself. Maybe you’re disappointed and haven’t really admitted it to God. Maybe you’re afraid to admit it. Don’t be. God wants us to talk to him in all honesty. We must worship him in spirit and it truth. So, be honest with him. Or at least, be willing to be honest. Tell him how you really feel.

Next, let God show you if you are disappointed at him. Maybe, just maybe, you’ve stuffed all of this disappointment with God, because “it would be sin to be disappointed with God.” That’s okay—all of our sin has been dealt with on the Cross. Maybe God wants to help you through this disappointment so that this wound can be treated properly and healed. Let him show you. Let him be the Great Physician he is.

I believe there are many believers who have some unspoken disappointment with God. An unanswered prayer. A delayed promise. A difficult situation.

Even deeper, there are some believers who don’t even know or admit that they are disappointed with God. Out of pride or fear or a “religious” upbringing, they won’t admit in their hearts that they are disappointed with God. They bury it, hide it, maybe even numb it so that they don’t have to admit what they think would be a sin.

Why don’t you ask him? “Father, am I disappointed with you in anyway? Have I buried any disappointment with you and don’t acknowledge it? Through Holy Spirit, show me. Help me know the truth.”

Jesus said to the people who believed in him,“You will know the truth, and the truth will set you free” (John 8:32).

  • http://betterdayzarehere@blogspot.com Carl

    Me too. I am enrolled in the DWG Annoymous program.

    Step 1. Admit I am DWG. “Hi my name is Carl and I’m DWG my whole life.”

    Step 2. Make peace with the truth that God is not disappointed with me.

    Step 3. Repeat step 2.

  • Edwin

    I look around and see the innocents suffering, children, animals, and I wonder where is this all loving,god? This god than can see all, here all, be in all places at the same time, when I was younger I never questioned why things happen as they happen, but now there is so much greed and intolerance, and hatred and I can’t help but feel that if there is a god he must have forgotten about his “children”

  • http://www.myjourneywithgod.com Russ Pond

    Thanks Edwin for posting. I appreciate your honesty and candor. I know beyond any doubt that God loves his children, and he is constantly fighting for good and for healing and for justice. I believe he’s working 24/7 to fight on behalf of those who can’t fight.

    But, at the same time, (and this is where the church gets it wrong), God’s hands are often tied. He is limited in what he can do here on earth. Most churches teach that God is sovereign over the earth and his power is unlimited here on earth, but that’s not what the Bible teaches. Sure, there is a level of God’s sovereignty here on earth, but he does not have all power here on earth. His power can only be released here on earth through agreeing believers. We are the only channel of God’s power and love here on earth. All through scripture, God has always required agreement to do things on the earth. Even in creation, God said, “Let us make man in our image.” Notice it’s all plural. And, when you read the numerous Bible stories of God’s power here on the earth, it is always tied to or released through a person or people.

    Right now, Satan is the “prince and power of the air” (Ephesians 2:2) and he is the “god of this world” (2 Corinthians 4:4). He’s the one in control and that’s why there is so much suffering and disease and injustice. He’s the source of pain, not God. Adam had all authority here on earth, but gave it to Satan when he messed up in the garden. Jesus came back and regained that authority, which is why we as believers in Christ have all authority here on earth. Sadly, most Christians don’t get it. They sit idly in their pews doing nothing, waiting for God to move, and God is waiting for them to get up off their butts and be the Church that Jesus died for them to be.

    If you’re going to blame anyone, blame the devil for causing it and blame the lukewarm church for not doing anything about it. Because with the power of Christ in us (Ephesians 1:19-20), we can do amazing things here on earth.

  • Jen

    I have done all that, I have cried and have plead and have asked if there is something I am not doing to please God to show me. I have told him how deeply hurt, disappointed, betrayed in his not keeping what to me are vital promises he Said if I believed and I did believe then the day the hour, the time comes for a specific thing a big thing; legal problem or health problem or one for protection. We lose the legal battle, Not one we created but forced on our door and we were vicitms of others. The job we needed nor any job comes for 14 years, only piece mean and so we are in so deep of debt we will be dead before ever paid and what they bring does not even pay all the bills or physical needs. protection for children and grandchildren and one dies, beloved and you trusted God to protect and bless. Why take a four year old who ONLY LOVED you and on top of that allow the media, the law to do power trips for ego and harass and want to prosectue an innocent parent who did NOTHING to harm the child at all there loved that baby and now they want to prosecute and hurt the family more the rest of the children more. Enough is enough and I have asked, plead, prayed and nothing makes sense I am done.

  • Christine_ashford

    Thank you for this! I really like the sentence where you said, “Maybe, just maybe, you’ve stuffed all of this disappointment with God, because “it would be sin to be disappointed with God.” I have been disappointed and deep down, angry with God for many years over an unfulfilled promise. I have tried to be honest with HIM but I find that when I repent and tell HIM, I get disappointed and angry again and I feel He is upset with me for feeling this way. What has been hard for me is that I speak life in many of my friends’ lives and then I watch God fulfill or bring it into their lives! It is hard to watch. I try to be happy for them and rejoice with them yet at the same time I feel forgotten or that God has lied (I know, I know, God is not a liar!) There is also the faith and expectancy part  that goes with the promises of God. My struggle is, how can I have faith and expect God to do what HE said HE would do if I already feel like HE failed?

  • http://russpond.com Russ Pond

    You asked: “how can I have faith and expect God to do what HE said HE would do if I already feel like HE failed?”

    God never fails. The Bible says that he is faithful. Incredibly, wonderfully faithful. He will never break any of his promises. He can’t. He would cease to exist if he were to break one of his promises.

    I would encourage to press in and listen carefully with your heart. Put aside any pre-conceived ideas, wants, desires, pains, hurts and just listen to his heart whisper to your heart. I am convinced that his overwhelming love and compassion will wash away all the pain and discouragement.

    He has never failed you. And, he never will. Don’t let the enemy lie to you about God’s faithfulness. The enemy will use the circumstances of this world to confuse and accuse God, but don’t listen to those lies. Reject them and believe that God is faithful!

  • Roni

    Thank you.  Your words mean a lot to me.

  • Dan.

    i try…all I get is silence. He knows I’m struggling hard spiritually, I want and try to be a decent person, and he doesn’t do a thing to help. Not a word. Everyone else I know is doing just fine. Even those who don’t seek his will. They skate. But when I seek his help, claim his promises of wisdom and guidance…nothing. It’s painful. It’s confusing. He knows. And doesn’t even lift a finger. I go for a year of praying and crying, only to find out I did something wrong…o.k, fix that, re start..then it’s something else. The goal posts keep moving. I’m just screwed. I guess I’m just on my own.

  • http://russpond.com Russ Pond

    You’re not on your own, and yes, God does lift a finger to help you. In fact, he sent Jesus to die on your behalf to help you. You’ve got to renew your mind and think the way God thinks. Your flesh (mind and body) war against the spirit (the things of God), but by believing in Christ and trusting in him, you can start to tune in and hear God. I know you can! Here are some good articles to read:

    http://season.org/freedom-from-fear-recognize-the-lies/
    http://season.org/freedom-from-fear-who-is-that-speaking/
    http://season.org/freedom-from-fear-hearing-gods-voice/